Letting you go

I wrote this the other night. I didn’t know it was the full moon at the time.

Full moons are great for letting go so this worked out just as it should have {Letting you go}

Something I’ve been working on this year is forgiving someone who has hurt me repetitively. I’ve never mentioned who this person is but a few of you have guessed from the Insta stories & YouTube videos I’ve made.

I think by talking about it will help me (and hopefully some of you too). It’s my dad. After years of damage, I finally made the decision to remove him from my life.

It’s so hard to forgive someone when you’re so angry at them and still hurting. It’s hard to forgive someone when just seeing the word “dad” triggers you.

I’ve made so many excuses for his behaviour over the years. I’ve given second chances, third chances, fourth chances – a hundred chances. It’s one of my nicest qualities but also my worst. I let people walk all over me for too long #cancerzodiac am I right?!

I thought I could help him… But a big lesson I’ve learned recently is it’s not my job. Even though I tried to make it my job on many occasions. You can’t help people who aren’t willing to change. Some people will nod and agree that they’re wrong, they might even apologise or say pretty words to make you believe they will change but actions speak louder than words.

You might be my dad, half of the reason I’m in this world but you're also the person who has hurt me the most, ever.

I want to forgive you, I really do. Not for you but for myself.

I don’t want to let you control any of me anymore. I’ve had enough.

Forgiving someone doesn’t mean you have to let them stay in your life and repeat heartache. Sometimes what’s needed is to let them go…

Ps. The oracle cards pictured I drew are past, present & future.